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I wanted to leave the title blank, but then in the list of titles at the side it would have come up as "I wanted to leave the title..." or something and that looks gay (especially when words are cut off half-way).

I don't know why I'm writing this; I don't have anything to say.

Valentine's day was nice. Robbie came through in the evening and we saw the second National Treasure film, which was quite good. After that we walked back to mine, watched Skins that I'd recorded from Monday then went to sleep. We went through to Edinburgh the next evening. We had dinner and we bought ice cream but we never got to eat the ice cream and I'm rather gutted.

Not really that gutted though, he says he won't eat it.

Anyway, I had to come home abruptly on Saturday evening which upset me quite a bit. I sat about once I got home - I don't remember doing anything. Sunday was a day of sitting inside, being lonely and Monday was much the same (until the evening, when Angelica and I went and ate crepes). Yesterday I worked in CRUK til 5pm then sat about at home.

I need a job so much. I feel so shit not being able to buy anything.

I'm going to the cinema in an hour or so. Had to scaff money off of my mum so I could get the subway. I would have walked if she didn't have any, but it's raining a bit so I'm glad she did.

I really miss Robbie.
But I'm also really annoyed about some stuff.

I'm not very happy about this to be honest.

job hunting

I have been job hunting this morning. Not outside, though, don't be silly - just on some websites. i've got a few numbers to call, but I can't decide whether to call or not. I think there's a couple I'll definitely give a ring, and a couple that I'll just forget about.

I need a job : / it's tough maan.

So nothing much is going on. I saw Things we Lost in the Fire on Monday with Angelica and it was actually really good. On Tuesday I tidied my room properly, made it all clean and what-not. On Wednesday I don't remember doing anything... umm... I went to the optician in the morning, took the bins out then went to the shops in the evening. Yesterday I basically just sat about, then went round to Angelica's in the evening and watched Before Sunrise on her OHP.

Today I am going out with Kate in the evening.

This weekend is nothing. Cat show tomorrow, probably food shopping too. Sunday will be nothing I think.
Thinking ahead makes me feel sick. I can just imagine the dreams I'll have and how they're going to make me feel.

byebye.